Monday, October 20, 2008

The gift of love. My mama.

In just a blink of an eye she sees her children growing up and time is against her. Her only son is leaving for University barely noticing the remorse in her eyes as she watches him go. She has to let him go. Let him spread his wings and leave the nest. He is sad to leave but at least has something to look forward to. A new life. Freedom. Friends. What does she have to look forward to but a phone call from her only son. The first few days are hard for him but he soon adjusts and finds friends whom he will cherish for life. He is swamped with work,partying, sleeping. The calls become less frequent but he still thinks of her. Always. She is a working woman. Always busy with keeping everybody happy and helping others. Not even once stopping to do something for herself. It is from her heart that he has learned the meaning of love. The meaning of passion. The meaning of perseverance. She awaits for that one call that would brighten her day. An everlasting bliss. How much she would want to hear his voice even if it was just to ask her for money to buy a branded new outfit. Even though there is no money to give. She will find a way. She always does. To know that her only son is happy and safe is all she needs. His eyes are blinded by so many temptations. So many distractions. He is but blind to the very essence of this lady who has sacrificed her whole life for him. All he thinks about is himself. ME ME ME. What has he ever done to make her proud? What has he ever done? Nothing. But a new dawn has set and....

He has changed. He is renewed. His eyes are finally open . So much hurt he has sometimes befallen her but not anymore. He will try to become a better son. A better brother. He has been away long enough to know. Just know. He will forever be great full. Nothing will come in between the love of a mother and her son. The most wonderful gift of love he has been given from God is his mother. My mama.

" You had to leave to spread your wings. I didn't want to let you go but I knew it was about doing what was right for you. There is a vacuum in my heart that I fill up when I see you. I will always love you my son" my mother sent me this message on my phone yesterday morning.

Monday, October 13, 2008

To wait for true love is total bull!!!

Come on... Do you honestly believe that once you love somebody it means you love them forever? Do you believe that you will never get over your ex? That he or she is the only one? Think again. To be frank, I was one of those naive teens who did and it so happened, I loved a girl who still thinks in that manner but times have changed and so have I. Being away from home has made me more firm in my personal beliefs and given me a self confidence boost like no other. Haha. I'm not vain or anything just more out there. I was seriously an entirely different person. I know it sounds cliche' but its something that has changed my perspective entirely.

Ok... Let's get into the whole reason of this post. I want everyone reading this be it you agree or disagree with what I have to say, know that love is undoubtedly, undeniably and most certainly blind to the heart. A heart sees no flaws, sees no reason to doubt. A heart merely feels and this emotion is sometimes so strong with a certain special someone that we forget the world we live in. Why is it that people always say that it is hard to get over your first love? Why do we tell ourself that we will never feel what we felt for another person again? It is because we fear that that person might never love us the same or that our heart can never love the same again. The truth is, we can but what we end up doing is wait... and wait.... and wait...... Time is just a pillow we use to comfort our heart. Using time as an excuse is saddening. Ponder on this... If the one whom you thought was your "true love" actually turned out not to be the one, then why do you want to wait untill you find the right person? Why don't you put yourself out there and get to know millions of other people. Enjoy the time you have left and pick out the ones who are suitable. From there, I am sure you will find someone who makes your heart feel like its going on a roller coaster ride. If your gonna reject every person that comes to your doorstep and wait for your true love or still hold on the past then I'm sorry to say this but your just going to end up alone.

So, all I'm saying is.... Don't waste time. Be willing to take chances. You never know what might be waiting for you at the end of that road. Don't just close your eyes and wait for your true love to come to you. Open your heart and seek them out.

"Preserve sweet memories but do not linger on them, for only sheer sorrow emmites from the pasts that no longer exist." a quote by me.